When you were given a rest day, you would think at first that it would be enough and all, it would be good to pause for a while but then it has to be cut short. That is just how it is, life gives us pauses to rest but as humans, of course, we would want more, and I do. I want to have a longer vacation but I cannot because well, life’s not the way I want.
On April 03, 2023 to April 04, 2023, I have been observing at the High School I was assigned with my CT and fellow Student Teacher. For the first two days, my CT already set her standard so high for me because of what school I’m from. It is a good and honorable thing that she thought great of me and acknowledged my skills as a Marian but at the same time, the pressure it placed on my shoulders is so heavy that I am shaking on the inside. It is indeed a given that the school I am from gives the best but I can’t help but feel nervous as I must live to that expectation. I must show that indeed, I too can be the best I can be.
I went home on the 5th of April and when I got there, I immediately slept like I haven’t slept for ages which is true because for the past few days, I wasn’t able to have a decent sleep. Me along with my church mates then went to a hot spring where the baptism of some of our church mates were held and it gave me flashbacks when I too was plunged into the river for my water baptism and I can’t help but feel proud for them. April 7, we went to visit some of our relatives which to me is enough rest in my mind seeing that they’re doing well.
At the end of this week, I am glad to announce how I felt kinda refreshed that I am able to say that I have spent the week very well. It is indeed not enough because I am having so much fun however, I came to realize that it is bound to end. Life does not want to give me the wholeness of happiness as I might get tired of it and will not seek it again. Life is a cycle for us to continuously seek for the happiness we long for. And happiness has a lot of kind, that’s a lot to search for.
An entry of a Student-Teacher 