When I was a kid, I remember being taught on the safety on crossing the road and I definitely heard of the “Stop Look and Listen” phrase as a guideline. As I continued the day on 7th of February 2023 in my observation task, I realized how being in the teaching profession also requires me to master the “Stop Look and Listen” manner. As I am just observing the class, I thought I will stop and look and listen to the discussion for my Reconstructed Lesson Plan but I still missed some details.
The first class we had with our CT went smoothly with no mishaps apart from few inappropriate scenes from the film they’re viewing and on the second class, there is thankfully none of it. The first class in the afternoon however didn’t go as smooth as I hoped because there was a minor accident involving one of the students. During the time of observation, I just sat on my seat as I sometimes look around to observe the students and when they’re beginning to get noisy, I did nothing to stop them from being noisy or from standing and walking around the classroom creating disharmony. Despite reminders to behave, the students seem to need more training to listen because they’re not following on the first call.
I got scared to be honest as the classes went on.
Being inside the classroom as a student never intimidated me because the teachers always does the intimidation. However, when I entered the classroom as a Student-Teacher, I suddenly want to run away because of how nervous I am. It made me ask myself, is this how being a teacher feels like? Is this how my other teachers felt when they entered the classroom? Were they also intimidated by the students? If the answer is no, then I’m probably doing this wrong because I feel terrified.
What if they won’t listen to me?
What if they asked a question and I can’t answer?
What if they won’t like my teaching?
What if they find me boring?
I know I learned how to overcome these obstacles in teaching but I don’t think I have enough bullets in my gun to survive the battle. I do hope I will be able to reload as quick as possible.
An entry of a Student-Teacher 